You are nothing, but a lie.

2012-02-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back from the hectic semester after 2 months and the only reason is because I have some time to spare. Such a rare opportunity it is, to have some free time.

The semester came and gone like a wind. Back then, we were all counting down to the end of semester. From 2 months and XX days, 1 months and XX days... and the semester is almost gone already. Just 2 more papers, and I have all the time on earth till NS comes.

To be honest, the thought of ns had never came this close to my mind. I am growing up too fast. Darned.

Geezus. I hate growing up.

2011-12-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

A 2 weeks break gonna come soon, but there's 3 quiz before the 2 weeks break and 4 assignments to submit after the 2 weeks break.

Then we have 4 weeks to complete the entire project along with quiz to study.

This is one crazy semester. But somehow, I'm managing it well till now.

2011-11-16T20:13:00.000+08:00

So so so busy. So so so tired.

2011-11-12T23:28:00.001+08:00

Went with my honeycutiesweetiepie to the movie theatre to watch '那些年，我們一起追的女孩'. It is really a meaningful show. It reminds me of so many things.
The movie have reflected on what I feel about love. The best love, will never be the one that is completed by a marriage or break up. The best love, is when you just get to know the person, and started to like that person.
I've learnt from life, that it is better to look at someone you love from a distance then to be together with the one you love. Because when I look at them, I do not understand them. I do not know them. I do not see their flaws. They're perfect. But when you get to be together with them, they're not as perfect as you thought they would be. And the more they look perfect, the more you'll wish to be with them.
Thus i come to have a believe, that if you really love a girl, you'll not get to know her. Because by doing that, she'll be forever the perfect one you see. Weird thoughts of mine.

2011-10-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

I'm getting super lazy, losing my discipline little by little. It might be me getting complacnent that I've just got a last semester to go or it might be that I have already achieved my goals. Not really achieved, but all I have to do is to maintain my results and I'll achieve my goals that I've set for myself.

Maintaing my grades ain't a hard job. But it won't come easy too. Get your ass off to work, Russell!

2011-10-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

The next few weeks gonna be challenging. Saying challenging is a nicer way to replace the word 'screwed'. My manager/supervisor is a total tyrant. I have a whole arsernal of verbs that I can use to describe her, but I guess saying those won't help. I'll just take this as a period for me to train myself mentally and emotionally.

Sometimes, she uses NS as examples to demonstrate how harsh situations can be. To put it bluntly, it's like a guy screwing girls around telling them he is preparing the girls for child birth. It'll hurt lesser when the hole gets bigger. Totally, bs. A woman who will never serve ns giving examples using ns, is like a guy trying to explain how painful it is to carry 9 months of baby in a woman's stomach and then giving birth to it. Seriously?

Working could be a breeze, if wasn't for her. She alone caused 8 people to curse and swear. And it won't stop.

2011-09-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

I'm working with my friend at the moment. The pay is pretty good for a student on holiday, I must say. Working with friend, of course, it's granted that it would be fun. However, not very true. Instead, I would say, it's my first time working there, and will be my last time. The level of expectations are different and not very forgiving. I guess we all start to see the different side of people when things get serious. Some who you thought are selfish and arrogant becomes forgiving and understanding, while others who always laugh along with you becomes harsh.

But my guess is, that learning is probably the most torturous and difficult part of anything. Be it playing a game, studying a new programming language, or getting new to a organization/company. Having said all these, I'm doing fine though. I'm definitely not running away from anything because things got hard, because things are not as what i'm expecting. It's just that I'll require some time to get adjusted to things. Things will eventually become right.

When you keep doing the same thing repeativity, chances are that you will become better at it. Be it studying, playing or working. With time, we all will learn.

2011-08-19T21:59:00.003+08:00

It's very weird that sometimes, I can present as if I'm a very good speaker but than another time, I speak as if I'm totally not interested. The presentation at Code Extreme and FYPJ last presentation.. I admit, I totally screwed up. To be honest, I do not know why. Nonetheless, I believe that the lack of preparation played a part for screwing it up. Lesson number 3, always prepare for your presentation.

Let me sum up the 3 lessons that I've learn so far in case I forget at any one time of my life..
1. Never just read through questions, thinking that you know the answers and neglected writing them now. Try those question.
2. Drink something sweet if you feel tired, especially before presentations or examinations.
3. Always prepare for your presentation if you intent to do well.

... But I would have to say, I had a good presentation at the Distinction Panel today. I've never brought my point so clear before, nor I did shake in.. exictment, nervousness or whatsoever. I hope I'll keep this up. (:

FYP has come to an end. Though I am unable to manipulate my own results of the competition, but still I managed to achieve my second objective, which is to get A for IPP and Distinction for FYP. I'm really thankful of the opportunities that I had in both my attachment and FYP. I was given a good company to learn, and I had learned a lot. I had a choice to choose my FYPJ, which I did not regretted.

It is true, that being unable to enter the finals of the competition shattered my confidence, greatly. If given a choice, had I knew this would happen 3 months ago, I would still join this. I think that it strenghten my emotions, to be able to handle such situation. But thankfully for the last presentation, I recovered every bit of my confidence that I once had with myself. It's still a happy ending for me after all. I've managed to achieve what I need to achieve.

Now, time to chill for a little while before earning some money by working part time and saving up for trading of stocks!

2011-08-18T20:56:00.000+08:00

It's been true that games can impart values that you need to learn, in real life.

I used to play a game, called Galaxy Online, and was a top 10 player there. It was first a bonus for me, and before I knew it, holding on the top 10 position became an addiction. For some people, it had became a obession to be in top 10, and some are willing to pay thousands of dollars monthly, to stay in there. I won't say that I spend no money on it. I've spent $20 on it, to maintain my rank.

It was later that I managed to convince myself that it's alright not to be in the top 10. You will only get demoted when there is someone better than you. Life is pretty fair in this field of 'competition' for ranks. If you are good enough, you stay there. Otherwise, you're proven unworthly of the seat in the top few and gets demoted.

Eventually, I brought this value.. to real life. If I'm good enough, I'll stay there. Otherwise.. I'll respect that someone is better than me. But the very same applies to them. If they're proven unworthly of the 'seat' at any one time, I'll climb on their rank.

2011-08-13T10:49:00.004+08:00

It feels like I've came to the end of another phrase of growth and now, waiting for a new phrase of life to start. Or is it that I've no longer any goal that I want to achieve?

4 semesters have already been over. I could probably predict my result for this semester too, and the following semester. Coming into the polytechnic, I've grown from a goal, to so much more after achieving goals after another. But now.. there's nothing more that could be done. All that was left is to maintain my results for another semester and hopefully, get to graduate with a gold medal.

But it's just this. Doing something that you can do is not challenging yourself. And without challenge, it'll mean slower growth in knowledge and experience.

I'll probably keep myself busy with investments and going out of my comfort zone to explore into more technologies with my next semester's project and try to implement them inside my project, to keep myself entertained for awhile.. Otherwise next semester would be a really boring one. For the first time.. I do not have a real goal for a semester.

One thing that I dislike about myself; that I've never been passioniate about anything that will make me want to do it, day and night. If I had been passioniate about IT, I would probably be more than just what I am. I don't hate IT. But.. I just don't have the love for it.

If there's anything that is keeping me in front of my computer to study and code, it's more of discipline and motivation than the love of it. :/

2011-07-24T14:26:00.002+08:00

'There's people out there with capabilities to take away all that you have ever wanted.'

How true. But of course, no one would do that unless there's a need to. I'm not qualified for the competition's final round. I have to admit, that I was lost hands down. But there's something I learned to appreciate; something that was never really needed in school. Team work is very important.

Usually in school, all we have to do is to be concerned with our own qualities and grades. Our team mates can refuse to do their work, but only their work will be jeapordized and only the person will be penalized. In school, one person can make a big difference in the results of a project. But in the competition.. One person meant nothing when others have three. 24 hours were 24 hours to me.. but they made it become 72 hours to them. Team work, was something that I had not anticipated.

Our teammates does not affect us getting As or distinctions in school and thus, teaming up with whoever will not affect our results in anyway. That was what I learned in school. How foolish that I've been, to use the same theory on the competition.

Another thing I learned was.. it's not always things have to be dynamic. I had a feature that allows me to display data. I could do it such that the data were already on the application, not retrieving from the database. It was only when the competition were ending, then I found out that I should.

In this competition, I've lost not just the competition. As the team leader, I've lost in terms of strategizing and analytic. I knew that people were strong. I knew that my team was not. But I had not came up with a strategy to compensate for it, believing that what my ability alone was enough. I had failed to make full use of 3 man's 24 hours which could efficiently be 72 man hours. With this 2, I failed my part as a team leader.

I would say that this competition has brought me experience that I would not learn, and refuse to learn in other places (Everyone had known that Team work was impotant). It also provides me an opportunity to reflect on myself. I hope I'll have another opportunity to join such competition to see how much I've learned from this competition one day.

2011-07-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

It's the final week before the competition! And I've received very bad news.
I've just got to know that 3 months ago, a group of Temasek Polytechnic students came up with an application, with 100% concept with mine. It's a total disaster for my team. But thankfully our application has more than just those features, and that their application are flawed. I would stand a good chance against them, but the idea is no longer really innovative. In terms of designs and degree of details, my application would of course me much more superior. However, it has lost it's.. 'New Idea' feel. Truth is, I'm quite upset about it. There's so many application that they can built, and there's so many themes that Code Xtreme could gave. But so coincidentally, everything came together. The theme, their idea, my idea.

But than, friendster came first before Facebook and Google Plus. Google Map came first before gothere.SG map and onemap. Yeah, their idea was ahead of mine. But not the best.

2011-06-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

There will be moments where people are waiting for you to fall, there definitely will be someone better than you, in something, or even best you at your forte.

When this moment comes, accept that someone's better than you, accept that you're not good enough, accept that you're only human.

Everytime after doing well for something, people tend to get complacent. We start to become arrogant, we stopped to think that we will fail. I've gotta remind myself time and again that it's okay to have goals, and it's okay if you fail to achieve them once in a while. Sometimes I can be a little too aggressive when I become more ambitious.

Russell, it's time to slow down your thoughts and stop trying to control things for a while. What ever will happen, will happen. I guess I'll just do my best, and that's enough. If I can, I can. If I can't, so what? Probably that I suck, probably that I'm a little inferior than others if I can't. It doesn't really matter, I guess. Not like it hurts. :}

2011-06-28T18:40:00.000+08:00

I'm only left with 3 weeks before the competition. I don't like the fact that I seem to be the most hard working guy in the entire FYP, but I have to admit that I am. I've started extending my stay in school to 8pm daily since last friday.

People probably think I'm pretty crazy, using so much effort for FYP. But to be honest, I can't be bothered with FYP. It's the competition that I'm concerned with. I'll not lie about it; that I want to be the champion for this competition. In fact, who doesn't? It's like asking everyone, who wants to be a millionaire. I have no doubts that everyone will want to have a million in their bank.

Even though programming is one of my forte, I do encounter problems like anyone else. Everyone have 12 weeks to complete their FYP but I have only 8 weeks to complete my FYP. It's true that I'm taking over my teammate's project, but to be frank, their features are not strong enough. I'm literally redoing an entire project by myself that have to be of standard to win the competition within 8 weeks. The design, the ideas, the codes. I'm not complaining, but I'll be lying if I say I ain't struggling; not one bit.

There are times I tell myself, 'I wanna have a rest, I wanna do something else instead of sitting down for 8 hours daily coding'. Then everytime another voice would say, 'No matter how harsh a period can be, it'll eventually be over. You can do it.'.

And of course, if I can do it, I'm going to do it.

2011-06-21T22:04:00.006+08:00

Being in my Final Year Project period now, I'm being required to leave my comfort zone. It's now then I found out that semesteral projects are considered simple. In the director list, there's top 10 percent. In the distinction panel, there's no limitations of people to enter as long as you're good. But in a competition, there's only 3 teams of winners. Actually, there'll be only one team of winner.

It doesn't feel nice when you have to treat your peers as competitors which you can't work towards the same goal with. I don't feel safe sharing my ideas to anyone, anymore. Of course, my supervisors and teammates are exceptions. Information has been always a winning factor for anyone. If you know what others are doing, all you have to do is to do better than them. If you know the full potential of an idea, all people have to do is to think of a better idea that have a better potential. Once they know your idea is that good, they have to do something that is as good as you. Otherwise, they won't survive.

The truth is, everyone can program a feature. Nothing is pretty much impossible with the languages we have, today. But then those programmers who gets good idea are the one making big money. Facebook is just a excellent example. The concept of Facebook did not start with the founder. Someone prompted the founder, to make something better than the original idea, but very close to the original idea. Same concept but more functionalities. Now, I have to restrict all information to myself.

Everyone will say it's okay to share ideas as they won't be copying it. But it's inevitable that people eventually think of your idea, especially once they think that it is good. Yes, they won't be copying it. They'll be making something better than it. Take Koi for example. You get to choose 100% 50% or 0% sugar. Once everyone has it, KOI will eventually lose this uniqueness, although it might just be a small thing. So what if you have it when others also have it? Something that was once uniqely tied to you, became tied to everyone else too.

Good ideas, bad ideas; I guess I'll keep it to myself until the date of presentation. Sharing isn't always caring. I've shared once, there won't be twice.

2011-04-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

After the semestral results were released, I found nothing to look after till now. My days in my company are great. The team is very friendly, we joke, laugh and we get serious after that. They draw a very clear line between play and work. Every of the interns in the team get to have 2 hours of break daily, though it's stated 1 hour in black and white. There's a very unique kind of discipline that I like in the current team I'm working with. It's not those.. 'Hey, 830 to 600 means 830 to 600.'. It's more like a.. Yes, come late. Yes, go for longer breaks. But when you need to deliver, you perform. They're extremely flexible as long as you delivery good things. Even I OT sometimes willingly to complete the task I'm doing.

I don't know whether to be happy or not. In fact, being in the company daily is one of the most enjoyable things, when I'm doing programming (It sucks when I go nothing to do). Thinking of logics and coding all day long. For some unknown reason, I find a certain joy in it. In fact.. it's the most happiest place to be in at the moment. I can't really find joy in doing other things. It makes me seem to be.. lifeless. But really, nothing is more enjoyable than sitting in front of my company's computer and doing programming at the moment. Or maybe it's just that I'm tired and do not have mood for anything. I hope it's because that I'm tired; not that it's nothing more enjoyable to do.

Oh a brighter note, it's my love and my monthiversay tomorrow! We've been together for 1 year and 3 months already. Be it long or short, the number of days we're together doesn't matter. It's the days that we make them count that is important. Let's make our days together worthwhile! Love ya, honeysweetiecutiepie!

2011-03-29T21:54:00.004+08:00

I'm an extremely passive person. As in, I don't usually voice out my thoughts. Most of the time, I just feel that I do not have to prove a point to someone else nor to influence someone's perception against something, especially to people I'm not close with. It threatens the relationship between the parties involve, even if I am were to do it the non-aggressive way. Everyone have their own ideals, believes and view of things. Of course, as for my friends and my people who are close to me, I'll explain to them the way I look at things. Who am I to say that my perception is the best or "correct". But as a friend, it's my job to tell them if their preception is not even good, not to say best. But to listen or not to, the decision does not lie with me.

People always rational their actions because the result seem to be favourable and to those people, they seem become right. Usually, I'll just smile (in disagreement). Words can be easily twisted to turn things that are not favourable to you, seem favourable. That's how companies that are doing badly covers their tracks to show as if they're doing well, how some lawyers manage to defend some criminals from going to jail and even in presentation, some nobodies who do not did much work can easily score higher than average. You don't have to be right, to be right. Nevertheless.. I'm not convinced as I have my own beliefs.

Sometimes or probably many times, I would seem dumb to many. There are some actions which I do that people can never rationalize. Such as in some occasion, I would refuse to sit down when there's seat available. Some would say, "There's a seat, you paid the same amount of money as others. Why don't you seat?!". It's not like there's a handicap or an eldery that I could not find a seat.

It's just that I find that it's not a need. Laugh at me, but if I were to listen to my body and take a seat, it'll be sooner or later that I'll never listen to my brain again. Most of the people needs a driving force for them to do something. For the seat in the bus, the driving force for them to stand is that either there's someone in need of the seat or there's no seat. For me, it's my decision to stand or sit. If I were to term it in another way, it's known as mind over body. I have a lot of control of my body. When I want it to sit, it sits. When I want it to stand, it stands. When I want it to open a book and start memorizing and understanding, my body do not have a choice to say no. When I want to achieve something, I will.

I just realise how boring my thoughts are. So many words and nothing interesting.

2011-03-27T22:13:00.003+08:00

I would rarely use my blog to blog about how I spent my awesome day(s) but I'll make today an expection as my girl wants me to blog about the past 2 days. On most occasions, I would only blog about my thoughts.

It's weird that I got more deprived of sleep when the weekends came. I slept a little later and woke up at the same time I would go for work. It's been a long while since I met my girl so we were out for both of our weekends and thus I did not have any naps! I think I'll accumulate a very huge amount of sleep debts when attachment ends! Can't be spending my precious weekends lying on the bed for the whole day eh.

We went out for our date on Saturday; having our lunch at Marina Square, Sucker Punch at The Cathay and Flea shopping at Scape. My girlf's friend had her shop set up there so she wanted to support her friend while I swiped out my phone to play Inotia 2! That game can be quite a boredom killer. {: Btw, Sucker Punch is a bad movie. It's storyline is a little screwed.

It was girlf's mother's birthday today so we went out with her family to bugis for a little shopping before heading for Aston near the beach road. Happy Birthday to you Angelin's Mum! I hope you'll learn to treat her nicer! Haha. The Goreng Pesang (I can't spell) at the Beach Road where NS men buy their equipments are extremely nice! I'm gonna go buy it the next time I visit there again, which I definitely will in about a year's time.

I'mma go get some rest nao! I hope that I'll have a nice week ahead! And oh, I decided not to be Mr friendly anymore! It's not really me. It's sucks to be nice when at times people do not give back the courtesy. :\

2011-03-26T10:55:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder, what is it like to be smart.

There's always a misconception out there, that getting good grades is equalivent to being smart. Getting good grades only means that you're more knowledgable than others, and by no means, more intellectual than the other people. There're many ways to get good grades. Understanding, memorizing, being lucky and cheating. Of course, even a genius needs to understand. But their ability to understand is probably 10 time faster than any normal people.

In this society, everyone wants to be in one way or another, superior than their peers. It is good to be confident after getting good grades, but that doesn't means one get to act like you're the best or smart. Everytime it'll strike me, that if one is really smart, one would be in the university at the age of 15. The fact that one's still with the same educational level with their peers shows that they're just the same as other people and not much superior in terms of intelligence.

If there's a difference between me and my peers, I would say that it's my ability to understand myself as a normal human. I do not know what are my strenghts but I'm aware of my limits and weaknesses. People always think that they're unable to do something but in fact.. they could. They underestimated themselves. While for me.. scoring 4.0 and earning at least 1 million dollars later in my life is within my limits.

2011-03-24T21:57:00.001+08:00

I'm mentally drained. I wanna sleep more. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Having attachment isn't really a fun thing, especially when you get stucked very now and then. It's like as if a mountain dropped from nowhere in front of you. The only difference is that I can't dig a hole, walk around or climb over it. I never like to be dependent on anyone, but my lack of knowledge requires me to keep running to my colleague to ask about this and that. But oh well, I'm just a diploma student and I'm still learning! I just hope my colleagues dont find me a heavy burden!

The semestral results are out and I managed to achieve my goal of straight distinctions! The fact that I'm happy is just partially due to my distinctions. The reason I'm glad is that I managed to achieve my goals I've laid for myself. I hope I'll be able to continue achieving my goals in life. I'm going to continue to maintain straight distinctions or As if distinctions are not applicable. Next I want to graduate with First Honours in a local university and then continue chasing my goal of having 1 million before i die, making me a millionaire!

To be honest, wanting to graduate with first honours is a little too much. But I learnt to never look down on anyone, including myself. It's not impossible. It'll be a very tough way.. but.. so what. Nothing have been easy. Walking took me 3 years to learn. Even walking is not easy too.

2011-03-19T07:39:00.000+08:00

Accidentally, I got my fingers burnt on Thursday while having my lunch. Blame on my stupidity, that I had my hands on the metal plate which is used to keep the food warm instead of the wood which serves as a buffer. Now I'm having troubles typing and playing games. It sure hurts when I got burnt, but the thought of Japan came into my mind. They're probably suffering numerous times than what's on my fingers. Furthermore, tough times or happy times, they will eventually be over.

Results will be released in about more 3 days! I'm only looking forward to 22nd March. After that, I won't have anything I look forward to. Now that I'm not studying, I no longer have the little movitations to feel happy and want to do well in something. I've got no motivations from anything and anyone, anymore. I don't know what I want to do, but I guess even if I know, it's pointless. I'm having attachment now and what can I do? Go to work and try to get 5 for everything.

Life seems to be so dark and cold now.

2011-03-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

It's been exactly six month's since I've last blogged. This place is probably cold and empty now. Come on, who still use blogger now? There's facebook, twitter and tumblr for you to whine and share about how sad/happy you are. It's never really a good thing when I'm blogging. The reason I'm blogging will only be there's things on my mind. Things that makes me feel emotionally shaken (by a little), things that makes me feel like hiding inside my room, away from anyone and everyone.

Many things had happened throughout the 6 months. My results are improving and doing well.. but for the rest of the matter, it's always up and down. I'm not really happy. Being happy's really hard eh? Maybe I should start writing post-it's on my desk everyday saying, "I will be happy, smile!". Positive self talk eh?

Mr Thong just called me a moment ago to ask for my CCAs and contributions to the society. I did little. I should had joined the community club in NYP instead of Stage Arts. But oh well, young Russell just wanna have fun. Who doesn't? He wants to nominate me for a scholarship. I don't know under which category though. But I don't think it matter. My CCA records isn't that awesome as the others. 24 hours a day ain't enough. There are probably people with better CCA records as compared to me.

I hope for a better tomorrow.

2010-10-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

This is a blog post for Angelin Tan Jie Lin.

Hello, I'm in love with you. :}

2010-10-13T22:37:00.001+08:00

School holiday is coming to an end.Well, i guess everyone would hope that the semester break would had lasted longer. I think I'm getting used to the this cycle. Still remembering last year when we had our first semester break, the last few things I had in mind is returning back to school again. Project was so stressed up that time. But thankfully I had Shu Ting in my team.

I'm too tired to think now. I'm going to find a time to just sit on my chair and think of my new semester resolution, maybe tomorrow. I've learned a lot of things since last semester which I'll put in use the next semester. By that, I don't mean technical skills but other skills.

I'm slowly stopping the use of blogger already. This blog was made to complain and rant, but now I've got someone who'll listen to me rant every night and I'm happy with my life; results, relationship, friendship, etc. There's no point using this blog already.

Alright, good night all!
Angelin's boy.

2010-10-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow marks the last week of Oracle and the start of my holiday! YAY! The remaining 3 days of studying is going to be problematic. Those questions are strangers to me. I will have to memorize 80% of the answers. Jiayou jiayou jiayou Russell!The IBM test was over too. I managed to score 82% dispite scanning through the answer twice. I'm not really proud of that certificate actually. If you throw a IBM's database at me.. I'm gonna stare at it and it'll stare back at me.

HAPPY 9TH MONTH WITH YOU SWEETIE! (Yesterday) Hehehe. I had so much fun with my girl yesterday. We ate a lot! Our lunch was at Din Tai Feng which was my first time visiting. The main dish I ordered for myself is very plain, but just as the way I like it. Well, it's not surprising. My all time favourite drink is plain water. Haha. Then at night, we had Sakae Sushi Buffet which is kinda cheap! We expected it to be more costly. Good news for us. :} Good life. Hahaha.

Neglected my girl today as I had to study for Oracle today after 2 days of break. Not gonna be the last day I'll be neglecting her, but I'll try my best to make it up to her! I'll be going to accompany her over at her house tomorrow. Hope she'll be a littler happier and entertained by my company with her. (:

Goodnight,

Angelin's boy.

2010-09-28T20:46:00.000+08:00

Coming to NYP, I never ever regretted. I consider myself a very lucky student. Coming to NYP provided me a lot of opportunities, so much that I could not count. From semester 1, being nominated to represent DFI in the brochure to semester 3, being offered a place in Oracle. I'm very thankful to all these opportunities, and I hope my life will be always filled with more of such opportunities.

However, sometimes when opportunities come knocking, I didn't hold them tight enough. For this semester, I've got an advantage in my Project to get a distinction, being on the Distinction Panel and an advantage on Financial Management having score 39.5/40 for the first ICA and A for the second ICA. I went into the examination with already 45% of the marks in my hands. However, I failed to get distinction for both and am pretty disappointed with myself.

As much as I'm disappointed, I'm very thankful to score full marks for this semester. If there's ever anything/one that's watching over me, thank you, to who/whatever you may be.

Mr Graham made an annoucement about Oracle students being able to get Diploma Plus certificates upon graduation, as we've clocked 120 hours in studying Oracle. I've really happy upon hearing the news. 1 workshop for 2 certificates. (: However, we have to take 2 ICAs. Funny that it's holiday and I have to take 5 examinations in total.

My babe will be going for her class chalet too! Arghh! MUST MISS ME KAY! And must takecare of yourself, drink more water ar! (I will miss you!) Heh heh. Love you, sweetie!

2010-09-23T11:15:00.002+08:00

I used to be depressed everyday. I was finding a reason to smile, a reason to be happy. Until one day, it occured to me that I don't need a reason to be happy. On the contrary, I don't have to be depress unless I have a reason to be.

However sometime, life becomes a prick and decides that you should be unhappy and depressed.

Then I would tell life, I should be happy, and no one have no rights to take my smile away and make me depressed.

2010-09-20T18:10:00.000+08:00

I'm now at girl's house now. Haha. She won a match of risk and our deal was, if she won that match, I'll have to blog today. It's been a long time since I've blogged too. (:

Life is getting pretty busy for me that I don't have time to blog. For the past 1 week, I've been going to school from 9am till 5pm, listening to lectures which covers 4 chapters a day and which we have to do 4 practicals after that. It's really brain killing. I usually get very tired after the lectures. There's so much things to absorb. Many new things of the Oracle Database was introduced to us. There's merging of data, subqueries, creating constraints on tables, changing data from date to character format and etc. It might seem easy, but to learn 19 chapters in 5 days, it's a killer.

Then I spent my weekends with my girl. Hehe. She came to my house on saturday while I studied. The lecturer has told us to read the 206 questions that might come out for 5 times. Gad, I dint even do the past year papers for the semestral examination and I need to go through those question for 5 times! Well, I did whatever I was told to do. I had finished reading the 206 for 3 times. 2 more times to go!

My babe's preparing dinner for me at the moment. I'm going to join her for dinner! Have an awesome holiday!

2010-09-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

I've been getting lazy to blog this holiday! Well, holiday is really short for me. I'm already back in school studying. The lecture note that i received has a lot of pages!! It's thicker than our DataBase Management Systems book! The first day was a little harsh, which covered 3 topics. What happened to 1 week a topic. ):

Argh, it's holiday! I'm don't wanna fill my blog with more books and lectures and etc. For the past few days, I've beenp playing Heroes of Newerth and exploring Singapore with my girl! Hehe.

Sooo on Friday after her last paper, her family had a birthday celebration so we cancelled our trip to Marina Barriage for pinic and went for buffet! There was a lot of nice food there! The curry, bee hoon, chicken wings and salad! But I ate before I went, so I could not stuff everything into my stomach. What a sad story.

On Saturday, we headed to Orchard which tried to look for Liying in Takashimaya but failed to find her. With our movie time on 2:50, we walked over to Douby Ghaut which I had KFC there before we headed to Cathay for the movie. Resident Evil: Afterlife is pretty good. But they did not really flash back what happened in Resident Evil: Extinction, so i found it a little no head no tail.

Yesterday, we went to Vivocity to do nothing! Haha. Was pretty bored and wanted her company, so we decided to head to Vivocity. We went window shopping which I found a bag and a top that I like from National Geography. I think it's nice, but girl thinks it doesn't suits me. ): Ah well! I'll go try it when i'm richer and if it really doesn't suits me, I'll not buy it. If not, I'm buying! Haha.

Ah, 1 hour left before I go to sleep and wake up to go to school again. ):

Goodnight all!

Angelin's boy.

2010-09-07T23:20:00.002+08:00

It's been a very long while since I've last blogged! I think. Today marks the first day of holiday! YAY!!!! Finally a break after such a torturous semester. The project was a killer, the examinations was also a killer.

The first 3 papers, IT in Corporate Governance, Business Intelligence and Analytics and DataBase Management was pretty easy. I've secured 86 marks, 82 marks, 95 marks, for each of the paper. Of course, I took in account of the Principle of Prudence; Those which I believe will not score, I excluded them. But still, I won't dare to say I've did well for this 3 papers. At least, not until the results are out to confirm that I've done well enough. I might be wrong.

The last paper was a killer. I lost a lot of marks due to unable to intepret what the question was trying to tell us. I know the formulas, i know what to do, but I can't find the value to fit inside the formula. Hopefully, I'll be able to secure 60 marks over 100. I've already scored probably around 45/50 for the first half, so if I score 30% of my paper, it'll take me to 75% without moderation. Again, hopefully the moderation will take me to an A.

I really hope I'll be able to score at least an A for this 4 examinable modules. Being able to achieve my goal or not relies on this 4 paper already. With everything done, I can only hope and pray now. *Prays*

Back to a better mood.. It's holidays already! Yippeeeee! Hehehehe. Well.. my holiday last 5 more days before I needa get back to school from monday to friday for Oracle Certification training. This sucks. There's a price to pay for everything... as known as the opportunity cost. :/

And with so little days, I'm gonna spend some quality time with my girl! :} Alright, gonna end here alreadyy. Blog again soon.

Skinny Shake Shake

♥Bom Bom! :D

2010-09-01T08:49:00.000+08:00

Argh.. I'm awake at 744am when I slept a little late yesterday. Darn. I've been waking up too early!

I'll be having my third paper today. Gonna start revision later and make sure i revise enough to do well. The past 2 papers have been pretty well. There were no surprises for me and everything that the teacher said would be examinated were on the paper. But a little somewhere, I'm not happy, and I don't know if it has any relation with my examinations. Maybe I'm tired from waking up too early.

It also occured to me, that my cumulated GPA isn't good enough. I won't deny that it's higher than average but it's not enough. Going to the university and ensuring that I enter it with a choice of I want requires more than just my current GPA. My aim for my stay in the poly isn't graduating with diploma with merit anymore. My new aim when I graduate is graduating with diploma with merit, scoring close to 3.95. In another words, from this semester till the last semester before I graduate, I have to score 4.0.

This semester was an experiment to my theory, a measurement of my capabilitiy and grinding/training of my character. If I can't achieve whatever I want to achieve now, what ensures that I can achieve whatever I want later in my life? For this semester, my goal is to score 4.0. If I manage it, then I'll force myself to increase my capability and test my theory again, with my goal being to score full distinctions the next semester.

2010-08-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow marks the last 6 days of revision left for me. I'm really getting nervous about it. Hee.
So far, I'm done with my DBMS and BIA revision. Finished memorizing whatever I need to memorize and understand whatever I need to understand. (Expect SQL statements)

I've started writing notes for ITCG today and I've done 3 chapters. ITCG will take me quite awhile to get everything in my head. 9 extremely long and tormenting chapters to memorize. Russell, you have to do it. ITCG's one of your strongest module. You must do it! Finish the last 6 days of revision, make the full use of it and kick those module ass next week!

I'm at Girl's house daily to study. Hehe. Pretty girl to look at when you feel like resting.. and just continue your work when you feel that you've rested enough. Good life eh. Hahaha.

Alright, that's all for today. Will blog again when I'm free!

2010-08-17T23:04:00.001+08:00

If you think your life is a living hell and if you think life was always unfair watch the video below.

It's amazing. Not much because of the music, but his ability to live life to the fullest. It's always easy for anyone to give up on life, on themselves. But to accept the fact that he'll live his entire life without an arm and tell himself, 'I'll live my life splendidly.' without any arm, it's amazing. His talent is not with him playing the music. It's the way he motivates himself to live his life.

He's the first person I ever respected so much.

2010-08-16T16:23:00.003+08:00

I got exactly 2 weeks before the semesteral examinations start. Today marks the very first day of mugging after 1 week of fun and chilling after much pressure from the last 2 presentations. So far, I've done 6 topics of revision notes for BIA. It suddenly occur to me that theorically, BIA is the easiest paper. The 2 books of BIA is only half amount of DataBase Management Systems. I'm pretty amazed by how little things we have to study for BIA.

Here's my study plan for this 2 weeks.
Monday to Wednesday: BIA
Day 1: Do notes
Day 2: Revision
Day 3: Past Year Paper.

Thursday to Saturday: ITCG
Day 4 - 6: do Notes
Day 7: Have a break.

Next Monday to Wednesday: DBMS
Day 8 - 9: Read through entire module book.
Day 10: Past year Paper.

Thursday: BIA
Day 11 - Revision

Friday: DBMS
Day 12 - Revision

Sat - Sun: ITCG
Day 13: Final Revision
Day 14: Past Year Paper

Day 15: ITCG Examination, BIA final revision.
Day 16: BIA Examination DMBS final revision
Day 17: DBMS Examination

Day 18: Break!

The week after's Friday: Financial Management
Day 19 - 21: Revision
Day 22: Past Year Paper

Total Studying Time:
ITCG: 5 Days
BIA: 4.5 Days
DBMS: 4.5 Days
FM: 4 Days

Effectively, I have 18 days to study + 2 days for rest. If 18 days is still not enough, I'll burn 2 days of rest to study, and it'll become 20 days.
Alright, all the best to myself and everyone studying. Jiayou!

2010-08-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back from the Chalet! I spent 3 days over there and it's a pretty good getaway from books, parents and other little problems that can screw my day up. Sometimes, it really sucks that what may be a good day can be spoilt by small little problems.

Sky, me, Chye Ping and Ying Jie headed over first the the chalet. We reached there only to find 'Holiday Flats' of People's Association. No joke. It's flats. We were all quite stunned by what we saw. It reminds me of NCC camp. But thank heavens, we went to the wrong place. Later we found out it was a big bungalow. So much bigger than a chalet at Downtown.

I spend 1/2 of the time there staring at my mum's small laptop playing facebook game, 'TreeTopia'. I'm a little addicted to it! Haha. And most of the time, beside me will be either Amos who would be playing Warcraft or Guo Jun who were playing MapleSEA. It's good to have company, i mean, people doing the same thing as you are; Staring at the stupid computer when you're over a chalet. Haha.

Every night, there would be 8 people staying overnight in the big bungalow. Girl only came over the second day other with Jiawei. (: Poor girl had to endure my very heavy breaths during the night. Sorry about it! :X When everything ended, i headed over to her house and we took turns to sleep. We're both dead tired. Hehe. Tired, but fun! :D

Alright, so that's what happened during the 3 days over there. Quite summarized though. :P

Goodnight,

Angelin's Boy.

2010-08-08T10:36:00.000+08:00

I've been coming back very regularly to blog already. I guess there's much free time now. :} It's 3 weeks more till the final semestral examination. I'm only going to study for 3 papers so I will only need 2 weeks. The 4th paper is 6 days after my 3rd paper, which I will have more than enough time to study after my 3rd paper. Heh. Dont wanna study my last paper too early and then feel complacnent about it later.

So yesterday I watched 3 movies with my girl at her house. The Gamer, Jennifer's Body and The Time Traveller's Wife. Jennifer's Body sucks. Although Megan Fox is hot, but still, it's bad. The Gamer and The Time Traveller's Wife is nicee. :D I've wanted to watch Time Traveller's Wife for a longg while already. There's still movies I want to watch like Ip man and Inception!

After watching the 3 movies, Girl and I headed for dinner with my family. Although I did not have my stomach really full, but there was hell lot of good food. The first was Buddha Jump Wall, which came in 2 really huge bowl. Then there was fish, pig, veggie, some prawn like thingy and dessert. Good food for the win! :D

Baby, don't care about what other says okay! You're you, and you're beautiful! (:

Alright, laters.

2010-08-06T23:26:00.002+08:00

Got a little free time today, so I'm back blogging. It's been really a long while since the last time I felt like this. I woke up in the morning and started playing my iPhone game, 'The Settlers' for 2 hours, sat in front of my computer playing DOTA for another 2 hours before I went to meet my girl as we said we will meet up today to make up for our 7th monthiversary. (:

Instead of sitting on the flyers today, we decided that the money will be better spent on buying new shoes. Haha. Her flats were really in bad shape and I feel bad looking at her walking and suffering from the hole in her shoe. Flyers can wait. :} We went to Mr Curry after that to have our dinner and headed back home as we both were really tired out. I've been suffering from sleep debt every since the project presentation. Come on body, sleep more. I need to clear the debts. We walked a lot too. From City hall to Clarke Quay. Along the way, we saw people playing the bungy jump thingy at Clarke Quay. Seeing them flying up and down screaming makes me laugh. It made think myself as a sadist, but thankfully i wasn't the only one laughing. Haha!

I'm going for my family dinner tomorrow and girl is coming along! Hahaha. It's the first time she'll be having dinner with my family. My aunt, cousins and paternal grandparents will be there too. She's probably feeling very anxious now. Hehe. Gonna have good food tomorrow! :D

Alright, that's all for today.

Goodnight'

Angelin's boy.

2010-08-05T23:22:00.003+08:00

It's been one week since I've last blogged. That's pretty long and my blog is kinda dead.

My main project is finally over! It's such a huge relief. I no longer need to get stucked in L438 from 8am to 9pm just to complete the project. My presentation wasn't really well too. The slides were prepared on the day of the presentation and I only had time to prepare for the powerpoint and neglected my demonstration of the Web Report Studio.

My girl and I also spent our 7th monthiversary doing our project. It might seems kinda pathetic, but at least we got to spend it together. :}

I managed to enter the Distinction Panel, but this time, it was thanks to the lecturers' support in me, not much my own effort. Frankly speaking, my presentation was not worth being a Distinction, but the lecturers wanted me to try and at that moment, i was the next on the list who would be more likely to manage it. By more likely, I mean comparing 30% to 40% against 100%. 40% has more chances than 30%. One of the survival skills one have to learn in polytechnic, is to be liked and noticed by your lecturers, but I don't mean boot licking them. This also made Sky and me the veterans of DP for the 3rd time being there. We both faced the panels more than anyone, but we still suck at it. :/

But before I know i was in the DP, I know I din't do well enough and don't deserve it at all. Getting into the Distinction Panel isn't hard. Different people make it up there every semester. But maintaining in there is not easy, espcially when it don't disappoint much when you dint get something you never had. It will disappoint more when you lost something you once had. I don't deserve it, yet I wish I got it (And got it). Russell, when did you became such a person who want something you don't deserve?

The post is getting tooo long. I'll blog again like tomorrow. G'night all.

2010-07-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

There's a few good news, and a bad news good enough to ruin my entire day. Let's talk about the good one first.

I got a call this afternoon being notified that I'm nominated to attend a 4 week course for Oracle Database Associate certification. There will be only 25 people who will be granted this oppportunity every year and I'm really happy that I could be one of them. There's no Diploma Plus in NYP and such certifications are those 'Plus'. It would cost $12k to be certified by Oracle but the cost will be subsidized by SIT. With this certification, I would be able to become a DBA for any Oracle server based company which pays at least $4k, much higher just than a Diploma in anything.

Then I saw the email and I was one of the many who got invited for IBM certification too. If I manage to get both Oracle and IBM certification, it'll be a wow.

Alright, then here comes the bad news. I'm only left with 2 days to complete my project. I've not done anything yet. Not even a graph. I'm being bombarded with questions every now and then that I can't do my own work. You know, I really feel like saying, 'Fuck, can't you leave me alone and let me do my own work? Who the fuck is going to be responsbile for me not finishing my project? Not you. So if you can't do your work, who's responsbile will it be? Not me.'.

Anyone here knows how it feels like when you can't finish your work because everyone just keep asking you questions? Anyone knows how it feels like when you need help and there's no one there to help you so you can only dependend on yourself because everyone around you only know how to ask, not answer? I would be glad enough if everyone around me just do their own stuff. But they can't, and I'm burdened with their work.

2010-07-25T20:48:00.000+08:00

My weekend has been pretty awesome! It would had been better if I could have enough sleep. My body clock is stuck at 8 o clock. Geez.

I caught The Sorcerer's Apprentice on saturday with girl! It's very nice. Although sometimes I wonder why they won't just murder each other when they had the chance.. but if they do that then the movie would had ended earlier than it was suppose to be! Haha. Then we headed to the Museum (Don't ask me which one. I don't know. :/). The Museum is quite simple though.. it's just about singapore's hieritage and nothing much, but we took a lot of pictures over there. Hehe.

Then now, I'm listening to Jay's Superman can't fly. It makes me think. Yeah, I know that I think a little too much. But I guess it's healthy if I'm thinking deep and not complicated. But no worries, I won't be posting a wall of text today! Haha. That's all for today! :D

2010-07-23T22:11:00.000+08:00

Being totally random here!

In the past, i would do things people won't want to do. Sweeping the class when it's dirty when no one was willing, stand up on the bus when the seat is empty, run up to the front just to help pick up something someone dropped when i'm feeling really lazy and even climbing stairs to level 6 daily to eat at my grandparent's house. For some reason I never know, i like to make myself do things that I don't like to do. Maybe because I think it's interesting, but to others, they would probably think it's stupid. 'Why not let others do it?', 'Why not just take the lift?', 'Why not, just take the seat?'.

But now, I found out that it had sub-conciously trained my character. I hate studying, but because of me forcing myself to do whatever I dislike to do, it slowly became my character and there was nothing I dislike to do. My mind don't listen to my body anymore, but instead, my body does whatever my mind wants to do. But the rest doesn't know, that whenever they keep listening to their body; 'I wanna sit down', 'I'm lazy to clumb the stairs', they never have the willpower for anything, because their body won't listen to their mind. And that's the reason why, whenver they know they need to study, they don't 'feel' like studying.

It' amazing how small things can actually make up to become your character.

2010-07-20T22:21:00.001+08:00

I SURVIVED THE TOUGHEST WEEK ALREADY! Hehehehe. I'm so happy. :D

Just yesterday, I had so many things to do. There was ITCG quiz and Communication Skills 2 role play today. And for the first time in this semester, I needed to stay up till 2am to finish up my video for the role play before I get to sleep. Although it's just week 14 and we still got our last project for this semester to finish it, I feel so relieve that it's as if I'm having a holiday. Well, at least for today. (:

I thought I'm going to screw both of the assessments up. I was up studying the last chapter in the morning where I had to skip my lesson to study for it. Sometimes, something have to be scarficed for the greater good, known as the opportunity cost in economics. But everything went well! Our role play went well only because of Sky being a woman for once in his lifetime. Haha. Everyone was pretty stunned the first time they see Sky like this, even the lecturer. :D

JIAYOU FOR YOUR TEST, BAOBEI!
LYVM! :D

Haha. Alright, I'm gonna go have fun already for today! Hell has not ended yet, but we'll talk about it when it comes back tomorrow. (:

2010-07-13T19:26:00.001+08:00

I hate to admit, but I'm already at my limit. This semester has been very pretty harsh. In my first year, I was trying to do well for my studies. This time, I'm trying to survive the 16 weeks. Just 3 more weeks to go.

2010-07-12T18:27:00.000+08:00

At the moment, I'm staring at my computer not knowing what should I do. Or rather, My brains' not working. It's just like those moments where your mind is quite lost and you feel like there's nothing to do (when there actually is) and just wanna stone the day away instead of thinking and thinking. I blame the Business Intelligence project. That project is really a brain killer, such that it makes me just wanna go 'Aiyah anyhow do la and use formulas to do everything for me', but I can't give in to such nonsense thoughts. I'm going to struggle through this project with whatever hardship! It'll be a good experience to expand my ability to handle stress and will power.

Alright, I'm not gonna waste anymore time and do some revisions now. JIAYOUS RUSSELL!

2010-07-10T13:47:00.000+08:00

I'm back to blogging after almost 1 week! Haha. Was pretty busy almost everyday that I could not spent anytime with my blog. There's better things to do. :D Life has gotten very sad for me. Everyone I know practically just talks to me about work and ask me questions. Sigh. Give me a break.

So school was pretty much school, till Friday. Heh. I had Prata at the Prata House at Upper Thomson Road with girl before school and we went for the F.I.R concert after school. I've never attended a concert before and I enjoyed myself pretty much. Singaporeans are all pretty calm things. In youtube videos, I would see people standing up and jumping like crazy in a concert while we all just sat there, until the end of the concert then people started to stand up. Stephanie Sun made her appearance there too! Girl was very happy as she really liked Sun Yan Zi. It was amazingg. :D Getting to see so many stars in a night. The concert ended pretty late. I thought a concert would usually end around 10pm+.

Then today, I spent half of my day sleeping. I was really tired and finally can get a good rest on the week end. Who doesn't deserve to have a nice week end doing the things they want to do after a challenging week? Heh.

Alright, I'm signing out of blogger already.
Laters!

2010-07-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

After a short weekend, I finally got some time to rest. I've been over everywhere the entire week. Was preparing my data on Monday and Tuesday, having fun with my girl on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, Doing my work on Saturday and went to visit her relatives today. Now, I decided to appear offline to shut everyone alway from my time to rest. I could finally breatheee. (: Well, in fact, I only got time to breathe for an hour. That's how long my rest actually lasted, and exactly how i spend my last hour of rest? Over here. I just wanna lie on my bed or something, but it's been a long week end.

So I managed to complete our Com Skills Script, Part 1 and 2 of the Financial Management Report and I've completed manipulating the first 100 Credit Card Data. I did them all in 3 days, and I'm very proud of it. :}

Then today, it was girl's relative birthday. A 1 year old girl called Chloe. We went there to celebrate her first birthday! Haha. I've never seen her paternal side of relatives so it's actually the first time I get to see them. The first thing I got there is to greet everyone, and after that, have a good lunch. Haha! Aye, the food is quite nice. If my stomach is bigger, I'll dump more food inside and store it for breakfast tomorrow too. Haha! Seeing them is not that bad. I just sat there quietly with the company of girl and Wei En. Wei En is a very cute small girl! It's not that I'm a pheodo but she's pretty for a young girl.

Then after singing the birthday, we went home shortly. :D Alright, someone is vey anxious about my blog post! Haha. I'll hit on the 'Publish Post' now!

G'night

Angelin's Boy.

2010-07-03T11:23:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 6TH GIRL!
Hehe. I enjoyed your accompany!

I love you. (:

HEHEHEHEHE.
I'm so happy. :D

2010-07-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

Seems like I've not been blogging much this week. My apology for it. Life has been far too busy and stressful that I can barely manage. My main project is really a brain killer. It strains every of my time and brain cells to think about it. I might be thinking far too much than I needed, nevertheless, this project is the hardest I've ever encounted. But I'll manage. I have to manage.

I've not been doing well this semester. I got a 17/25 for ITCG, 75/100 for BIA. Darn, it's not good enough at all. For my future, for the D'list, for the measurement of my capability, I have to do better than whatever I am doing now. Oh well, I'll not say anything regarding my studies for now. It's meant to be a happy day! Everyday should be a happy day (Ideally).

So i got pretty upset daily seeing my result and headed to meet my girl for dinner. She's such a happy pie. I think she ate the flu pill, got high and went a little crazy. Haha. She was so funny that i started to laugh till i teared. THANKS GIRL! :D You really cheered me up a lot today. All i can now remember is your actions instead of my results. Hahaha. (:

So guesss what? We're going 6 months soon! Hehehehe. Although sometimes there're small quarrels and misunderstandings, but it's glad to have both of us being able to put them all behind and proceed with our lifes together happily. I'm soo happy to have you!

Alright, I'm going off for now! :D

Goodnight,

Angelin's Boy.

2010-06-25T12:46:00.000+08:00

I'm suffering from red marks over my upper body. Argh, my clothes feels like sandpaper rubbing against my back. I thought of putting the Aloe vera gel over my body to cool my skin. It feels really warm when I the sun-burned areas. But it's alright, for a darker skin tone!

Girl will be out with her clique today, so I'll be alone today. To get myself entertained, I'll go read up on the notes that I've wrote 2 days back and I'll write another 2 chapters of notes. Then I'll revise Database on Queries again. If I'm left with more time today, I'll do my project and have my lectuerer to confirm whatever I've done so I can proceed. My lecturer guiding us is really bad. She don't give us specific agendas and etc.I feel like an idiot always asking her questions.

And I'll tone my body a little today and of course, I'll think of my girl. Haha. Alright, time to get started. (:

2010-06-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

Girl came over to my house in the morning today. Hehe. :D If she had not come we might not be able to meet for days as she had classes today, we both have class outing tomorrow and the day after she has clique outing. So nicee of my girl to come over. Haha. Thank you! (:

I sent her to the bus stop as she needed to go to school, then something happened which shocked both of us. Haha. But thankfully the next bus came early and she was not late for her class. Takecare of yourself kay! DRINK MORE WATER!

While she's in school, I'm at home doing my work too. I decided to write summary notes for ITCG. I managed to write 2 chapter of them. (: I've never wrote notes for anything before, until BIA quiz. The lecture notes are too disorganized and filled with redundant examples for better understanding, and Miss Oh confirmed the theory that writing notes will get you better results. I think I'm growing up. I'm spending my holiday writing notes instead of playing DOTA, etc. I'm on a higher level at controlling my mood for studying already, unlike when I'm at lower level the past years where I had to struggle to sit down and open the book.

Tomorrow, sentosa with my classmates. I don't really dare go there with my half body like I used to already. It's been very long since I've maintained a consistent schedule to keep my body worked out. Gotta try to work out daily already!

Goodnight,
Angelin's boy

2010-06-19T14:07:00.000+08:00

I don't feel like blogging, but I'm here because of my girl! Haha. There's nothing much on my mind, so i'll just blog about what I've been doing the past few days. There was a moment where I could not stop blogging daily, but I think I've grown older already to blog daily.
I recieved a treat from Joseph at Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe on Thursday as my belated birthday celebration. I had my stomach really full with me having a Hor Fan and the whole mango ice thingy for myself. :D

Girl and I had Sakue Sushi buffet as we're both hungry and I've not eaten in there for 2 years already, then just yesterday, we had Seoul Garden for our lunch. Haha. We're both gonna grow fat. :D She brought 2 clothings from Bugis while poor me brought home nothing! Haha. I'm never interested in nice clothings so they never tempted me.

Girls' grandma invited me over to have dinner together with them. It's heartening to see them having family so frequently, compared to my family. We only meet once a year during the chinese new year. Thank heavens for chinese new year, or I'll probably never see my relatives.

Alright, will stop here for today. (:

Later,

Angelin's boy.

2010-06-17T12:43:00.001+08:00

Half of the first week's holiday is already gone. For the past few days, I've been having fun with my girl. Haha. :} But I guess, there won't be much time for fun anymore.

After this holiday, it'll be hell for everyone, especially for me. People always think they're having a lot of stress with their workload. I guess no one has ever stood in my position, where I not only have to deal with my own workload, but have to share people's workload because they can't manage with it. Even now, I get stressed up imagining the days ahead. People are relying on me when they need help, but I don't have anyone who I can rely on. Argh, Russell, just stop whining. Wasn't that all why you're the team leader(s)?

For today, I guess I'll be studying on Financial Management and Database Management System. I once believed that I'll forget everything I study, so I should just study before the examination and I'll remember everything for the examination. Until the day I told myself, I'm no longer studying for the sake of examinations, but for knowledge.

Ah no to forget, to think about my girl too. (:

Later,

Angelin's boy.

2010-06-14T16:37:00.003+08:00

I went for a pinic with girl yesterday at Marina Barrage. It was really hot at first and we managed to find a place with shadow to sit. The sea view was really magnificent, especially when you could see dark clouds closing into the land and the difference of colour in the sea. We finished eating our sandwiches before wind came blowing. This is the first time I actually experienced such strong wind. It's kind of fun and exciting. Hehe. The wind is so big that, the construction site opposite Marina Barrage was covered with sand being lift from the ground, like a sandstorm. It's really amazing and thrilling to see such a sight and experience such wind. :D

The rain then came and we dicided to explore the area. We found ourselves at a discovery site at the second level. That place is as amazing too! Let the pictures say a few things about the site!

The rain was really small so when everyone started to go back to the roof, we decided to head to the roof too and took a few pictures!

We then waited for the free shuttle and then we walked from Marina Bay station to Marina Square. It's quite a long walk and we almost broke both of our legs. Heh. Alright, this post is a little too long! I'll blog again next time!

Ah, not to forget, I had an awesome day! :D

Happy holidays,
Angelin's boy.

2010-06-11T23:52:00.000+08:00

It felt good to be able to wake up at 8am instead of those unearthly hours. (: This week is quite a stressful week for me, but thank heavens for holiday's here! Hehehe. There was 1 Presentation, 1 job interview, 1 Quiz and Project task for us to submit this week, an their weightage ranges from 2% to 15%.

Everything went pretty well, I think and I hope. I'm coping pretty well with this semester, although it's tough. I also neglected my girl early of this week, due to having deadlines on Tuesday and Wednesday. I'm very sorry about it, girl! D: But I'll make it up to you! My girl has been doing pretty well for her quizes too! Must work hard kay! Cannot last minute then study ar!(: Hehe.

Holiday is here too, just when we needed it! I miss holidays, where I get to do things without needing to be concern if it'll affect my results. Sleeping late, being with girl till I dont want to go home, and etc. Though there's 3 assignments for our holiday, but I still get some time to rest. I'm going to treasure the holiday before it ends and all hell comes with my main project.

Alright, getting tired already!

Goodnight,

Angelin's boy.

2010-06-10T08:06:00.002+08:00

Nowadays, I'm having insomia. The first day was actually 3 days after I started playing Three Kingdoms Online. This is why I can't play games while I'm studying. It started with me having to check my account before I sleep, and after I woke up. Then I started to wake up at 3am, 4,am, 5am, 7am with my mind thinking of 'I need to check my account'. Then half of the time I end up chilling myself to sleep.

Frankly speaking, I'm starting to feel the side effects of the lack of sleep. It seems to people that my studies are still doing well but I'm losing ability to concentrate on lectures. Every now and then I don't feel my mind being clear. It's like there's a mist in it. I kinda hate this feeling.

I tried to adapt to it, but well, I failed. Thus I came to a final decision, I'm quitting that stupid game. It's a little pity that I have to quit the game. I just fought my way into the top 10 position against 30,000 others. But I guess I have greater things to achieve in real life than maintaining a top 10 position in a game. It's as pointless as hell, although you have a huge sense of achievement.

May I have back my 8 hours of sleep daily, now that I offically quit playing! :D

2010-06-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

Today's quite a blast! Haha. I really enjoyed my heart today. I could felt the sweetness in my heart knowing how much effort my girl has placed in my birthday to make me happy while having to battle with her tests. Thank you so much, Sweetheart!

The day started off with us heading to Douby Ghuat to catch the movie, 'Elm Street'. It's a M18 horror movie and it's really good, expect for the gruesome parts. It's not that tramatizing as other horror movies as the nightmares happened with a reason so I don't have to go 'Is something gonna pop out to grab me?' when I look at the mirror in the middle of the night. In my opinion, the plot is really well done. It's actually the first time I've said a horror movie is good. I don't deny the fact, that I had my eyes shut while acting manly infront of my girl such that she could not see my eyes closed at times. Haha!

Then we headed to Orchard and walked around. There, Girl finally allowed me to see my gifts! Here's the picture of them! She also made a very very big card for me! Hahaha. Thank you so much for the gifts you got me! So much of them! I'll treasure them a lot! It was all that I needed and wanted! (: I love you sweetie!

After looking at my gifts, we were trying to decide where to have our dinner. Our final decision was to head to Marina Square to eat as Orchard may be a shopping paradise, but it's quite limited when it comes to food. At Marina Square, we had Mr Curry for our dinner. It's quite nice! :} Both me and my girl had our stomach filled. Thanks for the treat, baby!

We then had my cake beside the sea near the Esplanade and we stayed there for a little while, taking a few pictures before I left for home. At home, a French Connection watch was placed on the desk of my computer. It was a gift from my dad and mum, who decided that it's time that I need a watch. Thanks dad and mum!

Alright, it's pretty late now. I still have to do my 19th year olds resolutions! Hehe. Thank you everyone who has wished me a 'Happy Birthday'! It's been a little while since I've last heard that before yesterday. I appreciate all of it! And especially my girl, thank you for making my day!

Goodnight All,
Angelin's boy.

2010-06-04T08:10:00.001+08:00

I woke up at 7am when my lesson starts at 10am. I'm lacking of sleep nowadays thanks to my body not wanting to rest anymore. My body clock is quite screwed up now. My performance at studying is dropping due to that. My poor performance for ITCG was also partially due to that.

I'm going to reset my body clock but it'll probably take 1 week for me to adjust my bodyclock to wake up at 8. Geez. I will have to go to bed at 1230pm and wake up at 8am daily and think of nothing that will require a lot of thinking, 1 hours before bed. I'm going just lie flat on my bed till my alarm clock starts irriating me, be it i wake up or not.

That also means no books from 11pm onwards. Don't ask me questions regarding studies after 1100pm, for ****'s sake(FFS). You got all the time from 8am to 1059pm, that's 15 hours. Don't be a sucker and ask me an hour before I go to bed. 8am to 1059pm, or go ask somebody else. Give me a break, I really hate having to think so much before I get to bed.

Alright, later.

2010-06-02T16:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 5TH GIRL!

ITCG quiz was over yesterday and very sad to say, I'm not going to do well for that quiz. It was bad on my part for not having adequate revision for the quiz. There's the first downfall of this semester. Man, this can't go on. I have to improve my GPA this semester if I still want to enter a university and graduate with a Diploma with Merit. Russell, you have to manage your time for more time for revision.

And now I'm over at my girl's house watching her sleep. Haha. She hasn't been feeling well and her stomach is killing her every now and then. Argh, only if anything could make her feel better. She look pretty cute when she sleep though. Haha.

Alright, that's all for today.

Later,
Angelin's Boy.

2010-05-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

Flashmob's over and it's pretty fun dancing there! I know names of strangers and danced with strangers! Haha. I already visited both Marina Bay Sands and Resorts World! I've never been so early visiting any of the Singapore's attraction. Heh.

So it start off early on Saturday with me being late meeting girl. Soo sorry about it! We headed to school to have our lunch before we headed off to Sentosa. With so many people on the bus, it felt like an excursion. Ah, to think about it, I miss having excursions. Later when we reached, we gathered behind the holding area and practised for a while before changing into our clothes and had our lunch. The food over there is really great. I sticked around with Alphonso and gang as I'm alone in group B while he had tons of friends along. I had a little fun sticking around with them. :}

Later when everything started we went into the ballroom and walked around. Initially, I thought we would have seats but all of us could only stand around and take a drink and walk here and there. The seats were only for the invited guests. So we all waited for the VIP to arrive before listening to the music and people started dancing. Soon enough, 300 people were dancing together. Haha, what a crazy night.

We had Carls Junior after everything ended and It was already very late. With no trains to head home after sending my girl back, I stayed over at her house sharing a room with her dad.

Alright, getting late now, gotta run along already.

Goodnight,

Angelin's Boy.

2010-05-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

Ah, a week has just been over, filled with 2 dance practises and a quiz. Thank heaven for friday, which is a Vesak Day. Oh, it's today. Hah.

I've been performing pretty well in school so far, for my 2 presentations and 2 quizes. Finance Management have been a little tricky but I should be able to clear it, hopefully. The past few assignments and quizes has not yet been a problem, I'm already getting worried for my IT Coperate Governance and Business Intelligence Analysis Quiz and most importantly, my Business Intelligence project. I've not planned out properly for my project yet. Gotta start clearing my head soon and start planning before our team get lose behind. I've also got the Communication Skill interview to get prepared for. Wew. There's quite a lot of things to do.

Gonna be spending my day tomorrow at Resort World tomorrow for the flash mob tomorrow. I've been waiting for this day long enough to get done with. I just want to money. Heh. I don't really enjoy dancing much, with so much scolding going on. It really turns off the mood and I'm in a different group with Girl. D: I could only go look for her every breaks I have and then go back to my group. Ah, this isn't what is signed up for. But it's okay! I still get to see my babe. Hehe.

Ah, I'm really tired today. I'll stop here.

Goodnight,
Angelin's boy.

2010-05-23T23:35:00.000+08:00

I was out the half of the day with girl today and spent the other half doing random stuff like playing game, re-revising Financial Management. I took 2 days to complete revising it. Thanks to the game which got me a little hooked on. Hey, Russell. Spend your time more productively! Don't get distracted.

We were out at Bugis today, with her attempt to try keep me accompanied by giving me an excuse that she wanna look at clothes (which was actually the opposite, Haha!). We got to eat our favourite pasta! We walked round and found a few clothes that she had her eyes on. But unfortunately she could only buy one. It took a little while for us to decide what should she get, and then we went hunting for her flats, before I head to her house to teach her the flash mob dance.

I was at home half the day yesterday too, which I went to orchard to look for girl to find her clothes for the flash mob, which we failed to find any. Haha. We ended up resting in one corner and took lots of photos. (: I love having her around me! Haha.

Alright, time to go off to bed now.

G'night,

Angelin's boy.

2010-05-21T13:00:00.000+08:00

While surfing the net aimlessly, I stumbled upon http://www.givesmehope.com/. While millions are cursing about their life, how badly their day was and how they do not deserve ill treatments from people, there are the other few who look at things from another view. People who uses 'FML' don't deserve much respect from me. They're probably the few who always believe that their life is the worst of everything, when little things obstrucled their way of life. It's too over-rated and used like a trend/fashion. They're such a whiner, IMO.

At givesmehope.com, people accepts life as it is, people look at life positively even when life gives them hell. One of the best I've read is,

Recently, I found out I have a serious problem with my blood.
I was talking to my best friend about how scared I was. I started crying and said, "What if my body starts shutting down? What if I have to be in a wheelchair?"
"Well," he said, "I'll be the one pushing."

2010-05-18T22:52:00.000+08:00

School was pretty okay-ish today, except for the part when our lecturer declared that today's Com Skills 2 tutorial will be postponed till futhur notice. I don't really find more breaks a joyful thing. It's a waste of my time, to be honest. So instead of accompanying half of my class to AMK hub, I stayed in school and went up reading on wikipedia, a little of IT in Corporate Goverance and spent the rest of the time playing game. I wished I could slept, but I find it a little weird to sleep alone in the lab.

My abilitiy to concentrate was drained out by Mdm Chan's 70 powerpoint slides & information. After school, I went to look for girl and we headed to Bishan to catch the movie, 'The Backup Plan'. It's not bad. There, I also had Long John Sliver for late Lunch. Here's one random fact about me; I can eat something over and over again without getting sick at it (if it is nice). Looking at the scenes where the actresses are giving birth, I got the urge to hug my girl. Haha.

After the movie, we walked around and slacked at J8 before I got her home. Alright, getting pretty late now.

G'night,

Angelin's Boy.

Love you girl, very much.

2010-05-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

Another week is coming to an end already. It's been a hectic week but thank god it's over. It'll be 5 weeks later before hell comes all back and before that, I get to rest. (:

I joined a Flash Mob with girl, for the sake of money. My bank is only left with 4 digits which includes 2 decimal places. My parents would not allow me to get the bursary so I gotta get income from somewhere. I'm considering to join competitions, representing the school to get the top few places and get some money.
But before that, I'm sharpening my mental abilities.

Girl and I headed to the Helix and Marina Bay Sands on Saturday. It was quite a fun trip, where at one point she refused to return me my dollar and I used every method I could to get the dollar back and she laughed from the start of the Helix to the end of it. Haha! We went to Thai Express to have our dinner too. :D It's been a while since I've ate the steamboat there.

Then I was studying with Girl today. We both have quiz to study for but we did not manage to study much. Haha. Alright. I'll update my blog again sometime! Later.

Angelin's Boy

2010-05-13T15:45:00.000+08:00

I'm at the lab now after my 30 minutes nap. It has been a little hectic week with 2 presentations due. Thankfully, both presentation went well. But my last presentation for my main project, it was rushed out within a day, which I ended up needing to scarifice my sleep fpr it. All I want to do now is to get home, lie on my bed and have a good night sleep of 8 hours and return all my sleep debt that I owe my body. It's been really long since I have enough rest to feel like I can fight 2 dragons. I'm exhausted, I'm tired.

Alright, I don't really feel like blogging anymore. Later.

2010-05-09T10:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY (BELATED) BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEETIE! (:

It was sweetheart's birthday on Friday, something I've looked forward to for a couple of months. Though it's not those planning like any project where you have to sit and discuss together, her clique and I managed to think of something to surprise her on her birthday. There was meant to be 2 surprises, but lady luck wasn't with me. One of the surprise few away, literally. The feeling was like losing my laptop 1 semester back. "This gotta be a joke", was what I had in my mind. The funny thing is that I did not notice until sometime. Not only I've lost that surprise, I almost lost my phone, my MP3 twice and I think I've lost my pencil box already. Bleh. This week's not my week. This is what happens when I don't get enough sleep. :|

I took her to Orchard after her school ended and treated her to Fish & Co, where i got her a heart shaped balloon. That balloon look so cute! Just like someone. Haha. (: She wanted to continue shopping but her clique was waiting for her below her block and the cake is melting every single second we're not there, which then she did not know. I had to disappoint her by getting her rushed home and going home alone. Guo Jun and Jia Wei saw us and thought we had an arguement. Haha, but that was how awful things was for her.

I meet up with her clique and spent sometime getting a lighter, lighting the cake and positioning the candles before we headed to the position below her house where her window is. We called her to look out and shouted 'Happy Birthday, Angelin!'. (:

Alright, enough for today! I've still got a mountain of work uncompleted. (:

2010-05-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

Somedays back, my girl brought me a book of foolscape paper which I decided to turn it into a Diary or more like a Journal actually. The power of the internet can be far too over whelming at times. People can judge you, can start rumours about you and boycott you just using the internet. I probably will be blogging lesser already.

It's 1 hours and 30 mins till my girl's birthday! She will be as old as me! Hahahaha. Nwah, you're that pretty young girl since the first time I saw you in secondary school. (: I won't giving a lecturer on how to behave when you're 18, so no worries. Haha! I've got some crazy ideas on my mind, like writing 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' on my body and flash it to her tomorrow. Haha, nwah, I'm just kidding.

Alright, I look forward towards tomorrow to help my girl celebrate her birthday! It'll be a blast. (:

2010-05-03T20:37:00.001+08:00

I've just spent some good few hours working on the powerpoint slides for the presentation of ITCG; Enron's case study for Wednesday. It's only 5% and I used so much effort for it. Ah, 5%'s better than nothing I guess. I'm quite proud of my own powerpoint this time. Just like a skirt, short enough to keep things interesting but long enough to cover the content. When it's too long or too short, it won't be interesting anymore. Haha.

Yesterday was a special day for both of me and my girl. (: We went from places to places, from low to high. Hehe. I got her the bag she has been looking at for a long while and wanted badly, which she refuses to buy as it cost a bomb. We went to have our favourite pasta again at bugis. It's been long since I wanted to eat that again. She wasn't feeling well so I ate her serving in the end too. We later went to the highest level of Iluma and Orchard Centre (or central/center). Hehe. Love you always, sweet heart!

Baby's birthday is also only 4 days away. Haha, I'm quite exicted for her. (: Though I've not much plans for her, but I've prepared something she will talk about even for the years to come. I just hope that will work. Talking about my girl, I've not accompany her the whole day today. Argh, I miss you, AngelinTanJieLin!

Alright, gotta go bath and get a good rest after a long day of cracking my brains.

Angelin's boy.

G'night.

2010-05-02T00:24:00.002+08:00

Happy 4th, baby! (:
May we be happy, always.

2010-05-01T00:25:00.000+08:00

I've changed a little I guess. I've not been monitoring myself and I believe I allowed myself to get a little arrogant with the small achievements I have. Come on, Russell. You think you're good? You've not seen better yet.

The semester resolution I've said I wanted to write has not been written too. Ah, with so little time, I don't have time to do any reflection of myself too. I've gotta get settled down if I have a moment free during next week to reflect on myself, a moment for myself to grow.

Alright, off to bed soon! G'night.

2010-04-29T21:13:00.027+08:00

Another week is coming to an end, and things don't seem to look good. There are 2 important dates this end of the week and next week and I have my studies to worry for too. It's getting difficult to manage, but I'm dealing with it.

The modules are very new which have to use much brain cells unlike the previous few where things are dead and you can just understand or memorize. I've got to use time to explore for alternatives. I've neglected my ITCG module presentation due to the lack of time to read and assign task.

Time is always against me. I need 8 hours of sleep which already took 2/6 of the day, another 7 hours in school daily on average and I'm left with 9 hours. A nap takes another 1 hour, dinner and etc takes another 1 hour, transport takes 1 hour, Usually I play 1 HON per day and I'm left with 5 hours a day, including the time I use to stone in front of my bed or my computer.

I only get to live 5 hours a day in polytechnic in a struggle to choose between homework, project and spend it with my sweetie. I'm also having the same question as people are thinking, "Why do Russell have to be so calculative with his time?". %$#$, I'm still only 18, why must I do such things man. Whoever said polylife is easy should get shot. :|

Ah, I've finally said out things I wanted to say since last semester. :D

2010-04-28T18:48:00.001+08:00

RUSSELLLOHISAPIGGGGGG.MUHAHAHA.(:

2010-04-26T22:45:00.009+08:00

Monday's here and over soon. I used to be addicted about blogging daily but now the temptation of blogging is no longer here. Maybe it's either that I'm happy with my life or controling the urge to blog works. I've always have a lot to say, which probably is because I used to be always alone in my house and have tons of time for those thoughts.

I was out with girl and her family to Malaysia yesterday. It's been quite a while since i've visited there. The things there are fairly cheap for a shopping centre to be located near the checkpoint, but still nothing that I can afford. I spent the money my mum gave me all on food. Haha. It makes me remember of one of their local dish which my dad took me to 2 years back, but it was on the streetway. It's something similar to kway chap. Much delicious in fact, but too salty. Let's go back some day again kay, sweetie? :D

While having lecture just now, I was cursing at my lecturer. They can't seem to teach well. If I could predict whatever the lecturer is going to say, I would not need them at all in the first place. They did not explain and eleborate the main point. They merely went through those points on the notes, just like how I did when I'm not prepared for a presentation. I think I'm going to have a talk with my course coordinator.

Alright, I'll update again another time.

G'night all,

Angelin's boy.

2010-04-23T17:36:00.004+08:00

While I'm in school waiting for my sweetheart to end her lesson, I decided to revise on my Finance Management and it relates back to the Capital Market which was thought last semester, then it struck me. I've already been planning to put aside a small sum money for investment, but for the past few days I've been wondering where could I actually buy a stock or even what is the minimum I must buy? I'll talk to my Aunt or my Uncle about it when I'm free.

Then I decided.. I could toy with the foreign exchange. Big players would probably need an account for it, but I could just get to the exchange center near my house and have my money changed to other countries' money and wait for the country's money to grow stronger against the Singapore Dollars. And whenever I need money, I can just convert the money back to Singapore Dollars. The liquidity is there while the risk is very low. Companies can go bankrupt, but it's very unlikely for a country go go bankrupt, especially when it's now at the 'Recovery' stage of the economic phrase.

Most developing countries' exchange rate such as the BRICs (Brazil, Russia, India, China) would probably grow strong against the Singapore dollar. I'll go research about their exchange rate against SGD through the past years and look at their speed of growing.

Hmm.. just a random thought.

2010-04-22T23:07:00.000+08:00

Days went by like a flash. It's already Thursday, 4 days since school started. Groups have been formed and our team sticked to our original Team Singlerella, with myself, Shu ting, Amos and Li Ying. Discussion has started and it's not much any of problems yet. This would probably be easier and interesting than last semester's project, afterall that I came here to learn everything I have to about finance and investment, not making a game out of the eclipse application. Haha.

The new modules are really new to everyone and I'm going to have to spend some time revising on it soon. Ah, I've not yet made my new semester resolutions too. Gotta find some free time to do it; that is, if I don't spend my free time playing games.

I'm getting to see my girl lesser and lesser now that school started. ): I'll try my best not to neglect you and so must you, alright? (: Cheer up too, sweetie! I'll be here for you.

Alright, that's pretty much for now. Goodnight. (:

2010-04-19T22:52:00.001+08:00

There're so many thoughts on my mind. Usually I would have a thousand things to say if I have something on my mind, but somehow, I don't feel like saying it out. Maybe I'm just too tired to explain anymore.

2010-04-16T23:48:00.001+08:00

I got my poor big toe injured while walking to the train station with my girl. It hurts big time for such a small wound. Girl being nice got me back to her house and helped me with disinfection. Thank you, you lil sweetie! :D

I've been spending a lot recently and I've decided to stop withdrawing money out from my bank account. If this continues, I'm really dead. I've still got a doctor to see which will cost me a lot, so much that I get an iPhone with line already if I had not need to see the doctor. I'm going to stop myself from eating expensive meals needlessly.

My day was spent with girl today at home slacking around. (: Never fail to be happy with her around me. Heh heh heh. Then for tomorrow, breakfast and haircut with Joseph, only if the hairstylist I trust is working tmr though. Joseph is back in Singapore! YEY! Presents! Hehe.

2010-04-14T23:55:00.001+08:00

Everyone seem to be busy with dates and outing, be it with their Freshmen Class, Class, Cliques, Birthdays and FMO Departments. I was with my girl on monday and we decided to catch 'Clash of the Titans' at J8. It's very very long since we've went to J8 to have a movie! The movie was alright, mostly due to I know to story thanks to Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief.

The next day, Tuesday, I was out with my girl with her class at sentosa which we all got toasted in the sun quite badly that looking at my skin makes me feels like a boiled prawn. We later joined Clara, Aybin and their boyfriends for dinner. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA!! Hope you had a good evening with us(: I've not seen them for really long, since musical started and I missed dance practise for like 4 months straight.

With her, I slacked at home the whole day watching 'How to train your dragon'. It's a very nice and cute show. The black dragon's so cute! Just like my girl. Hahaha. :D Then tomorrow I'll be out with Sky, my clique and Sky's class while my favourite girl is going for her girls outing. I was suppose to be with the Finale Deparetment tomorrow too. Busy busy. Heh. Though busy, but it's kind of fun. At least it's better than coming home late studying from 8am to 9pm!

I'm enjoying my holidays man! Meeting my girl almost daily makes my day! Haha. Alright, gotta run now. Laters! (:

2010-04-11T00:14:00.002+08:00

I had a very enjoyable day with my girl and her 2 good friends today. Ate my favourite pasta over there before going around looking for their friends' present. :D The pasta over bugis is really nice. When I grow older and get rich enough to have some spare money, I'll go buy over the pasta shop along with their recipe, cooks and then expand the business like Aston did. Their pasta taste way better and cheaper than Pizza hut or Pasta Mania! Ah, big dreams eh.

We walked around Bugis, Orchard and Marina Square to look for the gifts. At one point, my leg was really aching from all the walks. Haha. Walking from Orchard to City Hall can really be a killer. Her friends left later and we had our favourite tom yum steamboat over at Thai Express! :D Only the Thai Express at Marina Square have that steamboat. We tried looking over Orchard and Bishan but they did not had it. Enjoyed my day with you, girl! :}

Looking at a new couple's blog,
I remembered the very day when i've told you that I'll give you nothing but happiness.
And this time, I'll say again.
I'll give you nothing but happiness.
ATJL, LYVM(:

2010-04-10T10:47:00.003+08:00

I found out that I've changed. I used to do those things people hate to do and go against my urge to not do them. Now, I just go with the flow with what people do. I think it's because of my, "I just want to have fun" side. I guess when you want your life to be just fun, you stop doing everything you dont want to do, don't have to do. I started to forget things I have to do.

Like the FMO, I went there to have fun. I did not bothered to help much, I did not bothered to care. I've told people, FMO's just part of my playground. But in exchange, I've cause the other people use extra effort to do the things I've never bothered. I want to have fun, I don't want to suffer. And because of that philosophy, I've neglected everything in exchange of fun.

Then I learn, I've lose my discipline. When was Russell that unresponsbile guy who throws all the shitty work to another person when I was the one always doing all the shitty work because no one else likes to do it? What happened to the guy who used to pick up every litter when everyone left without even bothering? What happened to the Russell who knows how he portray himself to another is very important? I've lost them all in order to have fun.

I din't know I could change so much, just to have fun. Alright, to hell with fun. Time to write some rules for myself which I've forgotten while having fun.

2010-04-08T23:40:00.004+08:00

I'm not really enjoying my holidays since FMO started. Screw FMO, seriously. And even now, I'm the Performance IC with Guojun. All I wanted is to come to have fun, not with more responsibilities. Alright, I had fun in the afternoon, but at the expense of not listening to my IC at all. I guess in this world, you can't have fun and be serious together, you can't have all the good things together.

You know, there are times you know there are something you shouldn't do, but sometimes, you'll have to do it. Emotions suck, seriously. Imagine the world with people who will never get angry or never get upset. Even when you broke their favourite thing, they'll understand that it's not on purpose.

Being human is probably about accepting yourself for who you are. Being humans is about knowing how having emotions feel like. But I guess I'm always trying to change myself to something I want to be, but am not. Even now, I wish I can throw away my emotions. Maybe I'll be able to live better without it.

Emotions are always so unreasonable. If emotions can be reasoned, people won't have to be upset when they got blamed for what they've not done and people won't have to cry because someone left them but it was never their fault. Screw the emotions. I'll just listen to my brain and learn to throw away my emotions.

Ah, Congrats to my sister for graduating with a Diploma with Merit too! :D

2010-04-05T23:10:00.000+08:00

It is Hao Ran's birthday today and since for the past 6 years, we've never initiatively done anything for anyone in our clique, some of my clique members decided to show up at 12am to wish him a happy birthday. It's rare I do anything like this, especially when I have to wake up at 7am the next morning. I woke up feeling extremely tired so I went back to sleep and skipped breakfast with my girl. Sorry girl, for that.

There's time I really wish I could post things I feel, things I want to say. The society has been far screwed up. The impact of the internet could drive actresses to commit sucide, could cause defame to a person and even gather people they dislike against someone. Yes, I do appreciate the little few who read because they're concern, but there's still little fews who loves to gossip and spread rumours.

Humans. They're only concerned with themselves and what they have to say. They're only interested in themselves more than anyone else. There's not a lot out there who bother to put themselves in another's shoe, not a lot out there bother to know how much something they do can affect another person. Do they even listen to the tiny voice of their conscious telling them, "You shouldn't be doing this!" anymore?

Ah, being absolutely random here.

2010-04-03T10:16:00.000+08:00

I had a day out with my girl at Orchard yesterday. We went there around late afternoon as we both slept until 3pm+. I brought someone's present which I owed for months (Finally) with the suggestion from girl. :D Later we had Fish and Co and we chilled outside Takashimaya. It's a good day. Hehe.

Man, I'm so skinny! Gaining weight is going to be in my new semester resolution man. Now that I'm CCA-less, I will have more time for myself! (: I'm going to spend 15 to 45 mins daily to do my exercises and eat a lot to make sure I'm consuming more calories than my body needs. I must become fatter before the next semester ends.

Alright, I'mma out of here! Laters.

2010-04-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

I've not been blogging for quite a while. I was in the school with the finale members helping out with the skit for the Grand Finale performance. The cast has been very cooperative and funny and it's good to see them getting along. I guess I'm finally doing something to help out my department, after staying idle for so long. I should start giving the best of everything I have to whatever I do.
Woohoo, weekends are back again! All I want to do is to chill and laze around my house being idle. There are so much things I want to do. I wanna sleep 8 hours everyday, I wanna do exercise everyday, I wanna go swimming twice every week, I wanna go jogging every week, I wanna play dota once a day, I wanna work twice a week, I wanna see my girl 7 days a week, I wanna meet Aybin and Clara Chua, I wanna meet up with my beloved cousin, I want to enjoy and have fun during my holidays. FMO's depriving me of everything. ):

I've been thinking a little here and there lately too about some random stuff. Everyone who see me daily should know I'm a very playful guy, but people who are close to me should know as playful as I can be, I can also be someone who thinks in a weird manner, somewhat different from how my peers think. Then again, I like the way I think.

Alright, before I sign off,

Happy 3rd, my girl!
LYVM(:

2010-03-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

I've been working over the weekends earning some money for myself over at suntec for the Career Fair 2010. Our ICs had been very nice to us, such like we choose whoever we want to sit with. I sat with my girl (of course) throughout the 3 days. (:

It's very hectic during the first day, such that no one had anytime to even have a slip of water. There wasn't even time for us to open the bottle as the queue were like 10 person long the first day and never ending, even when there was 30+ odd registration counters. Although paid $5.50 per hour, we had heavy responsbilities. Our mistake would cost their opportunity for a job, and i'm gulity of making thousands of mistake. :| There, i also learn why we should have good hand writings. Haha!

We got free lunch there! We got to eat Burger King on the second day and Japanese Bento on the third day which I longed to eat but was too expensive for the small amount. Then, we were also provided with tea breaks with can drinks and some snacks.

Then yesterday, girl and I went to Thai Express to have our dinner, after being tempted by the Tom Yum buffet near the registration counter. They only provide us with plain water after we ordered our food! Haha. We had a small Tom Yum steam boat and it's very nice! I actually feel like eating it again, but it's expensive eh. Not something I can affort daily.

Hehe, enjoying life during my holiday before the need to face books for extremely long hours again.(:

2010-03-26T22:48:00.004+08:00

Was it the medication, or was it my lack of sleep? Maybe, it's a combination of both. I still remember the days i emphasis the need for 8 hours of sleep. I'm too reliant on my sleep to bring myself around, I guess. But again, my lack of sleep weakens my mental ability by 3 times. If you think I'm kidding, it's because you were never me.

There's some other things I want to blog, but I'm not stupid enough to become another topic for gossip. Apprently, the 'Whatever appears in here, stays in here' doesn't really work well. I've lost the reason for blogging already. It was suppose to be a place for me to complain, to whine, to rant however I feel. Thanks to the society, I can't do anything like that. The society was never a nice place to begin with.

Either way, I wondered what happened to the Russell which I used to be. I used to be a very nice guy, I used a clever guy (I did not say smart). So, what happened?

2010-03-24T23:37:00.004+08:00

Thanks to the many free time we had today, I thought of a lot of things. It's been so long since I've thought of so much, and me being drained so quickly due to the lack of sleep contributed to those many thoughts.

The compeititive-ness of my course. My current GPA would had held the 2nd in cohort last semester, but this semester, I only made it to 5th. There's a lot of people who improved a lot, remarkably. Although I might view them as my compeititor (Friendly competition), but still, congratulations to them. They proved me that I'm not good enough to keep my rank. Maintaining my GPA isn't enough already. I have to improve if I wanna graduate with a Diploma with Merit to get to the university easier.

Then about my life style. I've been neglecting my life style for very long already. It's time I get myself to stop this and organize my time for exercising and some sun bathing. I've not go for sun bathing for 6 months already. I'm not gonna tell myself, "I'll start from next week.". This moment, I'll start now. I think I'm gonna come up with a things to do for myself again.

And some random stuff. But I got hype up after we start playing catching with Finale and later even other departments. Yeah, it's kiddy. But we had fun, why not? It's not like we're 18 already and we have to go clubbing, mix around with girls or head to the pub to have fun. Something as childish, something as innocent, something as simple like running around is enough to create a room of laughter.

Alright, later.

2010-03-23T23:00:00.002+08:00

I kept waking up today to check the time on my phone. 6.40am, 7.00am, 724am, 729am, 740am, 752am. Gad. Brain, you don't have to wake up so many times. Just wake up at 752am next time will do. I was waiting for 8am for the results to be published, then I found out something stupid which was a little anti climax. In my 'View all semestral GPA', there was this, 'Semester 2 2009/2010' under the director list. Nevertheless, it was quite a relieve for me.

Well, unlike last time, I'm not posting my results here. I think it's not as pretty as before. I had 4 distinctions, but I had only 2 Distinctions this semester. For this, I'm disappointed. My girl was also very anxious about her results when she woke up, and moreover her laptop was not cooperating with her. But my girl did very well this semester. (:

It was pouring heavily today and I went to see the doctor again with my girl accompanying me this time. (: It burnt a very big hole in my pocket but it'll be worth it. At least, I'll never have spare a thought for this problem which existed for quite a while again. Being happy, being worry free and depress free, I'm willing to use that amount of money to exchange for it.

And I'm a very happy guy now. I got a pretty girlfriend who loves me, my results are above average and I can now live my life with confidence again without those nasty pimples. Cheers to my life which I deem perfect! (Okay, not yet, but very soon) (:

P.s. I love milk. (:

2010-03-21T23:09:00.020+08:00

I was feeling really screwed up yesterday but my mood got better today after meeting up with my girl! (: She's my happy pill, haha. I went out with her today to meet her friends and clique at Marina Square, which we went yesterday. Haha. I've never went out on both Saturday and Sunday to town area before. It's always I'm too lazy or there's no one to go out with.

We all chilled around Marina Square, each taking turns to have their lunch at different fast food outlets, which later we went seperate ways and me having no where to go, decided to go to girl's house to watch some movie which her dad downloaded. It's quite funny. I headed home around 945pm.

I got a great feeling for the upcoming week starting tomorrow, and even for the next semester. I'll start living my life again like the first semester happily again, now without any reason to be sad. I'm finally getting my long waited bursary on the same date of result release and trust me, the only thing I'm exicted about is getting my money. Not my results, lol. No, I'm not money faced, but it's just that I've got a need for those money.

Alright, good night world.
LYVM, ATJL!(:

2010-03-20T22:28:00.003+08:00

Back from Cityhall with girl! (: Hehe. It's a cold day today with the rain never stop falling until late afternoon. We watched Kanji the other day too, that movie's totally kickass. It's a very nice movie, and it's rare that any movie got me saying that it's nice. Transformer was okay, Death Note was alright, but Kanji, it's good.

My face are getting screwed up very big time nowadays since last semester. Fuck my screwed up face. I'm sorry to have to use such words but it's really making me upset. It's affecting my daily life way too much, though many might not know about this. I dare not walk with my face up with it and it's stressing me up twice more than my semestral examination does. My confidence will be very soon shattered. Ah well, I guess many will think I'm over reacting to my situation. They're not me, and they'll never understand how I'm feeling now. I don't want to be depressed because of this anymore.

I guess no one's expecting to see such a Russell. Sure, I can portray an image that, I can deal with everything, I'm fearless of examinations, I can solve everything, I can learn everything just reading through them once, but it's not me. For people who have high expectations of me, I'm sorry. I'm only as human as you are.

2010-03-17T23:35:00.003+08:00

I went to the cruise center to fetch my girl back today. Ohmygad, I was smiling like nobody's business when I saw her and I could not stop smiling and looking at her. She's back to my side! :D :D I'm on cloud nine!

But I can't have her for tomorrow though. Arghhh! There's FMO to attend to as she've missed out a lot and I've also not been there today. There's some catching up to do. But well, i still get to see her tomorrow. (:

Alright, gonna go chat with her already. Goodnights!

2010-03-17T08:22:00.002+08:00

I just woke up from a full night sleep and I'm extremely happy with so much of sleep. :D Haha! Nawh, it's because my girl is coming home soon!!! Hehehehe. I can't wait to see her this evening later. :}

2010-03-16T09:07:00.006+08:00

I guess it's no secret that whenever I go for OGL planning, I kept asking myself this question, "Why am I here?". Okay, I provide some ideas, hope to make everything a sucess, but still, why am i there anyway? I don't get it. :/

And the weird thing is I'm still going back. Oh well.

2010-03-14T23:31:00.005+08:00

Tonight and for the other few nights, I won't be listening to my favourite girl's voice before I go to bed. She's on the cruise for like 4 days and 3 nights and I can't wait for her to be back in Singapore. Frankly speaking, I miss her.

It feels a little weird without listening to her voice suddenly, but she'll be back soon! It's only 3 nights. I'll also go to bed now.

Goodnight to my girl, and everyone else.

2010-03-11T20:01:00.002+08:00

It's been really long since I've blogged already. I ended up helping out with the FMO (Did I mention this?) as I could not find a job and I guess it's quite hard to find a job now. The first day of planning isn't exactly good for me. I've never been this quiet since secondary school days. I guess I was too tired. It's hard trying to to fall asleep and even harder trying to think of themes. We ended up playing truth or dare and it was so crazy and embarassing, doing really stupid stuff at level 6. Can't fail to make me laugh when I think of that.

I'm still looking for a job though! ):

Our class went to Mr Hew's school to have lunch today. Zomg, it's a very big place for a commoner and it probably cost a lot to have such big plot of land, and by a lot I mean millions. A small house is already like 100k in Singapore! I would not be surprise if the president of Temasek Holding had this land, but wow. My tutor in NYP have such a big land. I liked the bread a lot and I kept eating it ;) Gotta be the best bun I've ever eaten. Haha.

I went to girl's house after that to gamble with her friends and won quite a lot! Haha. It's the first time I'm actually winning money. I'm never good at gambling. Hehe. (:

2010-03-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

I love you means that I can accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even you're in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to. It means loving you when you're down, not only when you're fun to be with. "I love you" means I know your deepest secret and do not judge you for them, asking in return you do not judge me for mine. It means I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping the same way for me.

and I love you.

2010-03-08T00:33:00.004+08:00

After scaring people at Cinileisure with the super gey customes on Saturday, the day was finished with a treat by our dance instructor at Fish and Co. YEY TO (FREE) FOOD! Haha.

I went out with girl in the evening today and watched Dear John at The Cathay. The movie started only at 735pm, so we went around the area near the mrt to explore around, and we found a place like NYP's Dorm. It was then I found out I missed her badly!

My girl will be back in school for FreshMen Orientation meeting so I'll probably wondering what to do tomorrow. Haha. Let's see. Write letters.. look for jobs.. and continue to figure what to do. Haha! Alright, I'll be going to bed now. Goodnight world.

2010-03-05T17:38:00.007+08:00

I'm totally shagged out this moment after returning from 1 day and night over my class' chalet. It's been fun with some crazy and random moments, though I did not managed to join my class during the first day due to stuff I have to attend to for my tomorrow's job. The cosplay outfit is totally gay but I guess for the sake of quick money, it's just for 9 hours! It's probably a better option compared to selling backside. Haha!

I wasn't in a very good mood the past few days, but things had cleared up thankfully. I was really in a huge mess up due to the hectic schedule and lack of rest.

It took me over an hour to convince girl to join me and our class chalet. I don't feel like neglecting my class nor my girl, so I had to ask her to come down to accompany me. It's a party after examinations, I guess, the more the merrier. I swam over there the first moment I got to the chalet, I rode bicycle, I piggybacked, I watched a night movie. I had fun. :D

Alright, now i can say that I'm a free man! HOLIDAY IS HERE AND I'M GOING TO DO WHATEVER I WANT TO DO!

Now, I need to look for another job too, do tell me if anyone knows of any decent informations about jobs!

2010-03-03T22:27:00.003+08:00

It's the first day of holiday and i feel like there's thousands of things troubling my mind. Sigh. I can't even scream, "YAY, HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!".

2010-03-02T17:56:00.009+08:00

I think I've got enough of it already. I don't want to neglect anything more because of my CCA anymore. In the past, I would use to neglect my studies, in exchange of friendship and Dance. There would probably be some practise for Club Crawl the next coming week, but after D'camp, I'll be off for good.

There is just too much things I need to do, even during the holidays. I've been rushing projects after projects before the study break, I've been studying all the way for the examination since the study break, and even after the examinations, my schedule is in a huge mass. This semester wore me out so much that I can't even stand straight up formerly when I was doing my distinction presentation.

Here, I've got an examination, a date with my babe which I had to cancel (so sorry) and dance practise tomorrow and the day after and at the very same time, I got class chalet for 3 days which starts tomorrow too. I got work on the Sat and I've got D'camp at 8-9th. So I've got my 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th, 8th and 9th burned out, right after the first minute of my last exams.

If I remove dance from my schedule, I would be busy on only 3rd, 4th, 5th due to chalet and still could had my date with my babe and start job hunting on 6th. I've don't even have the time to take a well deserved rest after my semester ends. My god, this sucks, seriously.

I won't be saying this if I haven't found something more important in life. But I had, so for the final time since last semester, I will quit dancing.